#current song : jaga selalu hatimu n penghujung cinta. credit to dia n dia lagi sorang yang pekakkan my tlinga dlam car. but still IGNORANCE is d best :) appreciation to paramore.
currently memang dok pasang lagu yang same berulang2 . the rezen y , am i in love ? yes, in love wif malays song . haha. tak kesah la lagu m'sia ke indon ke asalkan lagu melayu . tapi saya tahu kite sepatotnye menyokong industri muzik tanah air , but dun blame me cuz d best music wins ! pfffft . stop d craps . by the way azam tahun baru nk kumpul lagu melayu cuz diriku yang bajet mat saleh tade 1 pun lagu melayu dalam list player . duh ! azam tu sounds stupid but ade orang cabar saye to do that . n for sure i'll take the challenge kan :) motif lahh bende kacang camtu tanak buat , saye pure malay oke . no doubt !
oke , actually mood i at first tadi seriously serabut n gloomy becoz a lot of things happened to me lately . the more i try to ignore , the stronger it comes to bring me down . its about my future , family , study , friends , and him. every single things seems rebel to me n sangat lah menyesakkan . i really wish i have someone yg dapat be my crying shoulder , i terasa sangat lah alone lately n useless . smpai kadang2 i trase nak grab a stranger and blow everything to him kasi share sesak i . but i cant . hopeless . mesti terfikir how loser am i kan . but , like i care . cuz i tink i am a loser . but only for dis time hehe . i used to be a happy-go-lucky girl and love to make my frens smile n laugh when i am around . but inside me , it killings me for real to be fake .
i dunnoe how to decide the best decision for my own even its for my future sake . m not strong enaf and i really nid someone to hold . m fragile n torn . trust me . i am a good actress u wont notice yang i tengah melalak dalam hati eceh =,= .
him . always dun get me n always being fine eventhough i kadang2 saje ta text 4 d whole day cuz nak tengok ape gaya dia. but still , he did nothing and at last at nite m d one who text him to wish him gudnyte n make sure he noes dat i still care bout him . how pathetic . but, trust me. m used to it . u salu ckp i tak sayang u n sumtimes i deny n sumtimes i senyap tapi bukan tanda malu , ta seswai langsung . tapi sbb i just dunnoe how to show u dat i deeply madly love into u . sury . craps , kao bercinta ngan sape huh?! haha .
case closed.
sometimes, i rase kali ni memang i banyak membuat keputusan yang salah n sangatlah tak bersyukur dengan ape yang ada . i hope i can undo but i am afraid to push the button .
this means , i trust u guys a lot !!!! haha. oke lahh . sleepy n enaf for nuw . banyak plak bebel kan . hehe . yela, da lame tak bermanje ngan blog , korang pun rindu kan ? jangan segan nak ngaku cuz i miss u more :)
till then , love ,
alyn_zuazlina <3
psssst ! jangan lupe senyum :) cuz u are beautiful.
